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story of blissfulness.
living with God
as he walks with me
all the days of my life.
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Thursday 1 October 2009
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Children's day 2009/em's b'day 2009
author:josephine
the celebrations started with b'fast at macs, i had to sacrificed my fav kind of b'fast-asian style.
then off to visit my mum n delivered mooncakes to her. a quick chat n off to meet my4th sis w her 2girls for the show '...cloudy...meatball'. its a cartoon show! not my cup of tea but then 4 the kids. aft that eu came n joined us 4 show no. 2 'shorts' minus the adults. my sis n i were off 4 some time 4 ourselves until we were reunited w the girls aft their show no.2. off to some shopping, eu got her fav shoes, the other girls went to the arcade n the adults talked n talked.said goodbyes to my sis n her girls n we were off for dinner at pastamania. shopped at mini toon to get em's present n later at polar to buy her b'day cake. finally walked back home n waiting for her dad to sing b'day song n cut cake. its been one long day. wonder if the girls will remember this day. the things parents do for their children!
Labels: things parents do children b'day
Tuesday 8 September 2009
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ever lonely even frens seemed many n around?
author:josephine
they played together when they were young. as they grew in years they grew apart fr years of maturity n exp n lack of proximity. now they are older they grew together away from us. its a pity n heartbreak tat things had come tis way. they had learnt to look out for one another. we had none. where had gone wrong. lord u know my grouses n only to u i can look up! is there a plan for us? have we stubbornly stayed on n out of line of your will? isnt it 2late? we had invested many of our years here. where to we go or stay?
is there any worth in shouting out there?
Monday 7 September 2009
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thots on leaving
author:josephine
having mixed feelings abt him leaving. though some things warrant the leave but cant help feeling sad n a pity that he had to leave. afterall he's been kind n encouraging to my family. visited my late dad when he was hospitalised n prayed for him, though a bit rush. seemed familiar with my in-laws perhaps he had called on them before. visited my in-laws relative at his dying moments to share the gospel. quite a personal P with a personal touch and responsive. very encouraging n desired us to serve with him in PC. cant help but feel a great loss more than any others.very sad,tear,teary,tearing... u will be missed!
indeed one of the two i feel a loss so much. the other one not even ffom mine own c but related n left for some other c. not much leading from him yet impressed me a lot with a fatherly figure. perhaps my heart always yearn for a fatherly figure in the absence of a fatherly figure in my growing years.
may god continue to lead n bless him.
Friday 2 January 2009
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beginnings of 2009
author:josephine
started or rather end the year at Adrians's place with besties Queks, Teos,Angs, Loos, Forever Young & Gan can travel and started the year with them too. had dinner, worship, prayer, hearing God's word and sharing together. A meaningful way to end and start the year. First day of the year work very hard at home and rest too. Today most things went smoothly {thank you god} at night attended the first prayer mtg of the year as promised to be regular. quite different from all other prayer mtg.today concentrated on praying for family salvation. quite a number of people came forward to share and pray. i did too. i recalled some years ago there was this first prayer mtg for parents' salvation and how i shared i wish for my mum to be saved and chris' parents too. then i already heard abt the salvation of lee choo's and yau seng's fathers' salvation.tonite i heard it again. its so encouraging to hear how god has been awesome in this area. my take is its still a long way for me to reach there but i am counting on god for it. this song really encourages me alot...a god of faithfulness and without injustice, good and upright is he...
in terms of my children's friendship, my mum's and chris' parents'salvation. god is sovereign and may his will be done.
Labels: salvation god's faithfulness wout injustice
Monday 29 December 2008
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thanksgiving
author:josephine
i went to worship somehow disturbed and looking at the atmosphere was much affected.didnt feel like thanksgiving worship or service as i realised my thoughts were on people around me.tried to worship but the singing also did not help much.followed by yoong huat n family sharing some semblance of thanksgiving though cant say for the rest. should just thank god and thanks to people should have been done privately afterall this is worship service.i agree we should not be stingy about our thanks but can be done in other way.be inclusive not exclusive!even we know how to include our non-christian or non-angora friends what more friends from church who have grown up together with you! be kind to one another dont wait for a tragedy to happen
Labels: be inclusive not exclusive dont show exclusiveness
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after church camp whats next?
author:josephine
church camp was a wonderful experience. actually intended to disappear into near nothingness, i ended up quite participative n v enthusiastic!so much so i was a bit brought down after that.anyway i was wondering where all the experience n sharing will take us to but was encouraged by my cg wanting a deeper relationship within the gp n reaching out to one another.may the lord bless us in this area as i see we really need to be more bonded to support one another through our lives in church and on earth.was also glad with the message by dicky tay as it sort of carried on from the camp theme 'arise n build'may the lord grant everyone to know what we need to build on in year 2008. i m ready for camp 2010 though i may not be a good planner i really hope the pp in my cg can take it up but the lord's will be done. its gonna be challenging as all my pp are in the U!
during camp sharing i can empathise with a member's sharing on their child. i cried heaps when i heard it because its something close to my heart though i do not verbalise it. its something that has been on my mind for as long as before the children came along and even more so now.jus recently i was talking abt it and also confirmed by the one.how can it happen when u have grown up in the very place u felt rejected or rather not totally accepted or befriended by your peers.somehow their friends outside church seemed more positive towards them than friends from church not that they do not have any friends at all in church. i have learnt n hopefully taught them to be thankful for some friends here and there.esp those older or younger than them.sometimes churchies can be unkind to their kinds which ought not be.jus dont yearn to be in the seemingly happening group not that i am against them. wish they be more inlcusive rather than exclusive. so sometimes related to someone here and there not very good becomes exclusive n not v welcoming unless pp of your type.this seemed angora's problem from cgs to clinques.i thanked god for Yoong Huat and Sally and their children.they loved my girls a lot and may my girls thanked god for his kindness to them in this way.never felt like this or experience this for them, till they came to angora. may we as families be good testimonies for the lord to new families. very encouraged by yoong huat's sharing and desire to live right for god to his family.may no one be left out in angora though i know someone may be but may god help them find someone they also can lean on earth.
Labels: no friends as in people u can hang around accept u
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house reno wldnt have wanted it so troublesome
author:josephine
lets see where do i start? i have not been able to fall asleep for many reasons thats why i am blogging at such an unearthly hour.sad.disappointed.worried.rejection.all sorts of negative emotions filled my mind n since i cant sleep i got up and post all my thots as a way of relief.
firstly i am sad, disappointed n worried abt the minor renovation thats going on in my house. since it started it has been one very long draggy n unhappy affair.there are times i was encouraged when i see new things up but only to be disappointed at the sub-standard of the workers resulting in uneven painting n taking care of the new toilet bowl and basin installed,thus causing them to have scratches and losing their new shine. i mean i pay for a new set so how can i accept one that look a bit worse off than my old one.dont know how this can be settled n its also keeping me awake.another thing is they failed to meet the target to finish by christmas n i have been patient knowing i also have a part to play. somehow they dont seem to try and deliver as soon as possible. dont know when they gonna finish. seems unfair that as soon as they delivered we pay almost immediately while in the process they sort of take their own sweet time. feel like giving them hidden problems with the cheque when its time to pay but cannot be like that laah so what to do...unto thee oh lord do i lift up my voice...let me not be ashamed let not my enemies triumped over me... this song brings some comfort.
Labels: black hair, etc.not worth it, losing sleep